27th Apr 06; Thursday-
I'm seething with anger right now.
I never expected that you really turn out to be so childish and screwed up.
Towards me, you're like "oh I'm sorry I regret what I did".
Behind me? You give others the impression that it's my fault I'm the bad guy I'm the one who screwed up the relationship.
HELLO, I'M NOT THE ONE WHO ACTUALLY SAID "I DON'T WANNA COMMIT" AND I'M ALSO NOT THE ONE WHO GOT TOGETHER WITH ANOTHER PERSON SO SOON AFTER A BREAKUP?
I can't believe I had actually wanted to get back with you so badly.
I can't believe that I was so stupid to think you could be someone I could honestly be happy with.
I can't believe I sacrificed family time, friends time and made horrible decisions for this relationship.
I can't believe I thought you were really serious with me.
Why couldn't you tell me right from the start that you were not gonna be serious with me?
Why make me go through 6 months of thinking that you were serious?
I'm not saying it's ALL your fault, but the point is:
I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU ACTUALLY HAVE THE NERVE TO MAKE ME SEEM LIKE THE BAD GUY.
I CAN'T BELIEVE I WASTED MY TIME, EFFORT AND FEELINGS ON YOU.
FUCK YOU.